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Saturday, April 8, 2023

Doctor's Visit (Part 4)

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It was hard for me to accept that I had always been a woman, but it seemed that’s what everyone told me. Had I really just imagined being a man due to some secret desire? And did I imagine the transformation in order to help myself accept this female body? It certainly didn’t feel real in my head; I was still convinced I had been a guy. But I couldn’t find anything with the name “Samuel;” it was always “Sam.” I had been going by “Sam” for a long time.

It was several months later. I hadn’t thought about it much, and the psychologist I had been seeing suggested a few books. I checked them out at the library along with some old favorites. It was an old book I hadn’t read since the fourth grade, and I’m pretty sure it was the same copy. Despite being updated with a barcode for checking out, the old list of names was still stuck inside the back cover. And with a shock, I saw it. My name as printed by the library on the list of past check outs, in full, and there it was “Samuel.” I hadn’t been imagining any of it, but why did the world remember differently?

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